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I don't ask for much. Just to be loved for who i am. To be respected, understood and accepted. For someone to love me, unconditionally. For someone to be there, always. A shoulder to cry on. An ear to listen. Arms to be held in. And a mouth to tell me all the things i need to hear. For someone to be patient with me, even when I'm my worst. I ask not much more, for everything i do ask seems fairly easy... I ask to not be judged. to not be yelled at or angered with. to not be taken advantage of. to not be fought with or augured with. to not be rejected. But i guess that is just to much to ask these days.

Sometimes i feel like everything inside is breaking. It hurts, and there's nothing i can do. But won't you just hold me close, and whisper how much you love me, tell me your the one who will never leave. When i feel like I'm falling apart all i need is for you to hug me tightly, and hold the pieces together. I want to feel safe, and protected. Loved and wanted. So hold me closer, tighter. And wipe my tears as they fall from my eyes.

I feel like I fail everyone. Like im never good enough. like i never will be.... A good enough daughter A good enough sister A good enough student A good enough girlfriend Or even a good enough person. There so much pressure, pressure of many kinds And they press on me, causing my heart to ache. Why can't it go away? I just wanna be free... Be free of rules... of standards of expectations of pressure. I wanna be free of the mold everyone seems to put me in. They don't understand that's not who i am. But...Do i? Do i know who i am? Im not sure i do... but either way i wanna be free to find myself become my own pers

I close my eyes, and lean in, your scent surrounds me. Our lips meet, a perfect fit, and my heartbeat races. All thoughts leave my head, everything but you, and us. I lose all sense of time, and being. All i want is to stay, intertwined with you. My hands run through your soft hair while your arms pull me closer. Simple kisses turn to deeper, more passionate ones, with so much meaning behind it. I pour every ounce of my love and need for you into that kiss, hoping to show you all the things i cant say. Ill never leave you, you are my everything. Our love is young, but strong and unbreakable, it will only get better as time goes on. Never list

This world is filled with hatred, greed, and lust. It's all so dirty, so wrong and so full of sin. We are born into this world as a sinner. Some are born into love, some arent as lucky. But either way you'll come face to face with those evil, evil demons. Hatred, Greed and Lust. Nothing is ever perfect, not here on this earth at least. We, as humans are the most imperfect of all. We'll lie, cheat,  and steal our way through life.  We'll betray the only ones who care and love us when worst comes to worst. That's just the way it is. No it isn't fair or right, but really when is life ever  fair and right? Exactly, never.  This is my story of how

Intro ~~~ A girl and boy were sitting in the sandbox outside on a crisp sunny day. Like normal five year olds they fought over what to put on the sand castle. “ come on just a little stone” the blonde haired boy said holding his thumb and fore finger indicating ‘little’. “No mine!” the also blonde girl yelled. The two fought over the sand castle for a few more moments of their time, until the boy shoved the red stone into the sand castle making it softly fall apart. “ Now look what you did!” the girl yelled accusingly, tears welling up in her eyes. The boy huffed and looked away. The small girl deci